Who wants to hang out tomorrow or monday at the beach? Nobody? ok :[
Play it safe when things are sketch.
It’s not worth the worry and pain it can cause other people.
Ok i really need to talk to you today because i just want to vent. I also feel bad about last night so i want to make sure everything is ok between us. I’ll tell you more if you decide to call me too.
Then i’m also sorry about everything. I’m sorry about our phone call last night. I’m sorry about the situation we’re in right now with everything. I’m sorry that i’m not being the best brother that i could be. I’m sorry i give you more problems that you should even be having.
The things i do for you are kind of funny. Just to let you know i don’t call you because i feel like i have to i do it because i want to. You’re a great little brother and i love you no matter what we go through. Yes it’s really hard to think about where we’d be if we dropped out each others lives entirely because well let’s face it we need to have each others backs. I’ve got your back even if you don’t have mine. I’m really trying my best to be there for you when you need me and everything. I’m trying to make you happy because knowing you’re happy and ok makes me feel good about myself and knowing that i didn’t hurt you. So hopefully i hear from you because we need to discuss things.
Have fun eating with your family at your fancy restraunt, by the way i’m feeling happy right now i don’t know why :]
I wouldn’t normally be this sad over a fight but i feel like crap. I have this feeling in my throat making it hard to swallow, my head hurts, and my stomach feels like it just got kicked. I say i’m sorry for everything because i can’t be there for you when you want somebody but i also gave you something i made so that way when you felt alone you have it. I tried to do whatever i had to so that way you could have that smile on your face. Even when you pushed me away i came back to you until i set things right. I wish i could see you I REALLY DO but when you say i wont do it, it makes me feel like you don’t want me to go. I really don’t have to do the things i do but i do it anyways because i want you to know i still love you…I’m giving you space because i know you want it, calm me when you want to talk. Just know that I’m actually trying.